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...Chinese poetry fandom if that counts? I'm not doing anything particularly fannish at the moment, just collecting and reading books to learn more about the 'canon', learning new words and traditional versions of words with primers for kids that they would have used back then. I'm trying to get back into reading - actually deciding on a book and taking notes on the content, finishing it - without jumping around to start other things. It's a surprisingly uphill task! Maybe I should start a media journal here?

2. What was your first fandom?
You mean the fandom I first created for, or the fandom where I first was like stepping into a community? For the first, Code Geass in approximately 2008-9. I wrote fic and made FMVs for it! They will never see the light of day. May my usernames be forever forgotten. And NIF of course, was when I started talking to other people in the fandom.

3. Do you have any favorite headcanons or fan theories?
I have two! Whalebro as Crown Prince T_T It wouldn't have made any sense in a canon context with an emperor that sensitive and suspicious, no matter how well hidden it was. But hey, that's what headcanons are for ~ The other one is a fan theory I adopted from Merelhyn: Nie Zhen as Mei Changsu's role model with his current identity, body and the limitations they bring to Lin Shu. It's canon that they were very close (you don't see him calling many people 'uncle') so this is a natural extension of that relationship that makes sense to me.

4. Have you ever created fanworks?
Yes! I've dipped my toes into fics, FMVs (with windows movie maker omg), fanpoetry, fic translations, canon and fandom related song translations and FMV subs. Don't do any of that now though.

(Hmmmm... I say that, but then we just ended nifex in December, which was only four months ago hahahaha xD)

5. Are you still active in any old fandoms?

 

Water, stories, air conditioning, the internet, my phone. In that order!

 

(1) That day in P1 when I was staying back for after school activities - they had just ended and I was sitting on the blue bench before the standalone wall with the school name on it, looking out across the carpark and the clouded sky. The wall separated me from the cafeteria, and there were other pupils there, but their noise had nothing to do with me. I don't know how long I was sitting there for, but it felt like a lovely moment of peace... until my form teacher walked by and asked if I was okay (LOL). There were many moments like this one throughout my life, but this was the first that I remember clearly.

 

(2) Not a single best moment, but a collection of them: In primary and secondary school after I figured out the meta of buying takeaway in the morning (like a pancake, begedil, a packet of meji biscuits, seaweed or other snacks) inhaling it as soon as the bell rang, and then spending the rest of recess in the library. 

 

(3) One of the last days of my first internship, and a group of us (all the interns in my department) and couple of our bosses went out for a farewell lunch. The interns and I decided to walk back to office because it wasn't far away, but the skies were already grey and it started RAINING while we were at a traffic light. We took shelter at the entrance of another company and had to call this other boss with a car to rescue us. Within that ten to twenty minutes of sitting there, chatting and waiting to be rescued, there was a moment when they were all talking and I was mushrooming in the middle, just watching them and thinking: I'll remember this forever.

 

(4) The time I spent reading Langya List for the first time, finishing it at 4am and spending the rest of the night staring at the ceiling. It was a bit of a struggle to start and I was skipping maybe 5-10% of the words and/or guessing their meaning from context, but it completely rewired my expectations of cnovels in a few ways: [1] You can have a period setting, plot driven story without a romance line and still fill it with love. [2] You can have characters that don't appear on the page but are present throughout the story anyway. [3] Your sincerity and love is given of your own free will, it would be wonderful if it were reciprocated, but if not there is nothing to feel bitter over and nothing to regret. [4] The main character may die and it can still feel like a triumph.

 

(5) That whole day I set aside during the Apr 2025 Japan trip with friends for a solo trip to the Edo-Tokyo Open Air Architectural Museum. Early start, lazy Mcdonalds hotcakes breakfast, the whole morning and afternoon spent there and two hours of starbucks reading with a strawberry tea to end off the day. But my FAVOURITE moment that day was sitting in The House of the Tenmyo Family, with the scenery framed in the windows and sitting on the tatami floor in the corner of the room with a cool wind blowing in. It felt so much like being a part of the world but apart from it at the same time. Hmmm this is the latest example of the same feeling in (1).

(Readers of No. 1 Pretty Boy of the Immortal Path can probably tell why I love it so much at this point xD)

 

Esther Yu in her faked baby voice era (no it isn't natural 🤣 there are vids of her in variety shows from an earlier period in her career proving it xD). 
Chen Xiao for a while because every (literally every) drama I'd watched him in, he was acting as a character I *hated*; his face got blacklisted by association. But recently I briefly saw him in The Ingenious One, and he was fine in there! 

 

Recently? Relatively recently anyway (within 2024 and 2025), I enjoyed The Murderbot Diaries, the Imperial Radch trilogy, Manifest in Words, Written on Paper: Producing and Circulating Poetry in Tang Dynasty China, 直播写纯爱文的我在虫族封神 | I Became GOAT in the Zerg World Writing BL Novels on Livestream and 唐代基层文官 | Low-Level Civil Officials in the Tang Dynasty

 

Outing bag: Water bottle, umbrella, eReader, lip balm, fan (and loop earplugs!).
Desk: Glass water cup with straw, tea set, wireless mouse and keyboard set, digital clock, supervising stuffed toy.

 

3. Do you like any of your school photos?
No lol. But I kept every single photo, selfie, yearbook and coffee table book because I am a nostalgic creature who hates saying goodbye. Getting rid of these would be like saying goodbye to the people we were before :'(

 

4. Do you ever blowdry your armpits to get the deodorant to dry quicker?
... no? I didn't know that was a thing. Question asker, did you throw out a bunch of random questions to hide the true query you need an answer to here? If so, it isn't very well hidden; this one is EXTREMELY out of place.

 

 

5. Name five favorite movies.
- 倩女幽魂 A Chinese Ghost Story (1987)
- 黃飛鴻之二男兒當自強 Once Upon a Time in China II (1992)
- Lion King (1994)
- Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (2001)
- かぐや姫の物語 The Tale of the Princess Kaguya (2013)

The above are in the order of when I remember watching them. Little Women (2019), 妖猫传 Legend of the Demon Cat (2017) and 罗小黑战记大电影 The Legend of Hei (2019) would be on that list too if there were three more spaces xD

 

4. Name four areas of interest you became interested in after you were done with your formal education.
- Chinese poetry
- Chinese history
- Writing fic
- Making spreadsheets

 

3. Name three things you would change about this world.
- Banish all cockroaches from urban spaces!
- Reverse global warming. (And if that's not possible, for humans to believe in it andwant to do something about it, the way they did with the ozone hole!) - Technically I just want this so that we can get the full effects of the next mini ice age please 🥺
- Reverse plastic pollution from every inch of earth and water!!!! No alternatives.

 

2. Name two of your favorite childhood toys.
- Marble Run, a build your own obstacle course for marbles, with short plastic tunnels, spinny plates, a marble wheel and hidy holes.
- Wooden house set with trees that can be fitted together, red interlocking roof planks, animals and wooden blocks of various shapes and lengths.

 

1. Name one person you could be handcuffed to for a full day.
- No one 🤣 I think they'd go mad first, being made to wake at 3 in the morthing. But I would be a very unhappy kitty by the fourth hour anyway, when the sun has risen and I'm still prevented from doing my stretches and morning reading.